Daddy gets a kick

Tonight daddy got to feel our little guy move for the first time. It was pretty exciting to be able to share that with him. He was surprised by it, but his smile was priceless.

It's all so amazing!

Anatomy scan today-19wks5days

Tonight was our anatomy scan, I love seeing our little guy and never get tired of it!

It was just so amazing to see his little heart beating away, up until tonight it has always been just a flicker on the screen. But to see it up close and knowing that this little tiny baby inside me has this amazing heart beating away was just incredible.

He was not exactly cooperating, he was all tucked in a ball, at one point we got to see him with his feet over his head, he looked like he was folded in half! After changing positions a few times we were able to get what they needed, we got to see his kidneys, stomach, spine, it was all just so crazy. He is a little person now! We also verified that we are indeed having a little boy. It's just so crazy that we knew what he was last April when we did the transfer, but I will take any opportunity I get to make sure the PGD is right!

We had to go to the same place that we had the NT scan, luckily we didn't have to wait 2hrs this time!! Dh wasn't able to leave work early, and the appt was at 3. I was so afraid he was going to miss it so I took my time, the snow/rain helped me get there nice and late for the appt and luckily Dh was able to make it just in time.

I'm not super crazy about the tech, he was the same one as last time. He thinks he's funny when he's not and pretty much ruined all of our u/s pics by writing "hi mommy and daddy" in a word bubble on them all. I was able to photoshop one so it's not to bad, but it still annoys me.

It was great to see our little man again. I just can't wait to meet him!

Had such a nice day-19wks3d

Dh and I decided to go for breakfast and go down to the outlets in Flemington. We got to go to one of our favorite diner's, Skylark diner. It was delish as expected, and I ate way to much!

We headed to the outlets, I had a coupon for Carters and we are finally at a point where we felt comfortable buying stuff for the baby. So we had fun picking out a bunch on stuff for the baby. The hard part was knowing what size to get. Not knowing what size he will be when he is born makes it hard, I know they don't wear newborn sizes very long but I wanted a few things he could wear right away. I got a few of each size so he will have some stuff no matter what size he is. $70 later we had a bag full of goodies for the baby.

Then pregnancy brain kicked in! I reached in to get my credit card and it wasn't in my wallet! I of course paniced, we were able to put it on another card luckily, and when we got home I found my card in the pocket of my other coat. Gotta love these damn hormones!!

I hung the clothes in his closet, I love looking at them hanging there. I still can't believe that is a few short months I am going to have a baby to put into them!

Best Valentine's day ever- 18wks3d

Today is Valentine's day and I not only have my wonderful Dh who I love dearly I have this little boy inside me that I am more in love with then I ever thought possible. I told my Dh that the best gift our little guy could give me would to let me feel his movement. I have been waiting very patiently and know that I should be feeling it within the next few weeks, I just thought today would be a great day to make himself known.

So tonight after we got back from dinner, I laid on the couch and I felt him!! Of course by the time my brain registered that it was him I was feeling it was gone and I did not feel it again. I can't wait till it is more often and stronger, it is such an incredible feeling knowing he is in there moving around and I am finally able to feel it!

Hunt for a new OB - 17wk5d

A friend recommended my current OB, after meeting him the first time we really liked him. We then found out that my Dh's insurance would be changing in March and that this dr would no longer be in network. I was really upset by this because I did really like him, and the thought of having to try to find someone elses I felt comfortable in network was just overwhelming. My Dh did his homework, talked to the insurance guy and were told that since I would be in my 2nd tri come march Oxford would offer transitional care. This means Oxford would cover me as if they were BCBS, all we needed was the dr to fill out the paperwork.

At our next visit my Dh asked thr dr if he would be willing to fill out the paperwork for the tranisitional care and explained the situation. The dr said this was fine and told us to bring in the paperwork at our next visit. Fast forward to Tuesday, we tried to give the dr the paperwork and he said he didn't deal with the insurance and to give it to the girls upfront on the way out. Yeah, well guess what? The girls at the desk says in her nasty tone, "we don't do transitional care, if we are going to do transitional care we mine as well just take Oxford." We explained that the dr said it was fine and she says, "the dr delivers the babies, he has nothing to do with insurance, you should have asked us." I then tell them that we won't be able to stay here then and she tells us to just pay our deductible. Really? Why would I pay out of network costs when I can be covered? Am I happy that I have to change no, but there is no way I am going to pay $500 I don't need to just to stay here and deal with your nasty attitude!

I left there feeling so upset! I am 2 weeks away from getting my antomy scan, which needs to be done under BCBS, and this OB doesn't do them so I have to find a dr to do that as well as a new dr. I have had a lot of people suggest a Dr Gallo so I called them to make an appt, only to find out that it is there policy to not take new patients after they are in their 2nd tri. I also find out this is very common practice due to liability. This of course upsets me more because had the dr told us to talk to the girls about insurance instead of saying yes its fine, I would have found a new dr a month ago and would not have this problem now! So now I have no dr as of March 1st and no idea what I am going to do.

Dh has been great making all sorts of calls trying to find a new dr, but of course this is a holiday weekend and a lot of the offices are closed till Tuesday. Things just never seem to go smoothly for us, I am thrilled to be this far along in this pregnancy but could really have done without this drama right now. I know things will work out, they have to. I just wish I didn't have to deal with this.

I'm not having fun -17wks2d

All I ever wanted was to get pg, and now that I'm here I'm not enjoying it. I know I have no right to complain and I am sooo thankful that I'm here, but IF has ruined all the fun.

We never wanted to know what we were having, but PGD ruined that for us. And because we have known what we are having since the day we got our BFP I have always felt farther along then I actually am. example the rush to register, DH and I just decided we need to wait to register since my shower won't be till after he's born, thanks to IF, probably closer to September.

My mom won't purchase the furniture till he's born and Dh doesn't want to paint till he's born so I can't work on the nursery.

I use my doppler every night to make sure everything is ok, I still spend most days terrified he's going to be taken from me, again thanks to IF. Because of all my worrying time is standing still.

My u/s experiences have been just ok due to crappy techs.

I'm not showing yet thanks to all the weight I gained over the past 4yrs, again because of IF. I'm not feeling movement probably because I'm fat which just causes me to worry more.

God I sound so ungrateful, I'm thrilled to be pg! I just want it to be July and have this little boy in my arms. Everyone keeps saying don't rush it you'll miss it when its over but I'm not enjoying it.

4D u/s-16wks6d

Tonight we went for our 4D u/s. We verified that he is defiantly a boy, and got to see that he's ok. We weren't able to get a lot of good pictures since he is still so tiny. It was suppose to be a 45 min session but we ended it after 20 mins and will use the other 25 mins on our next visit around 26 wks. The tech said we can even do a third visit later in the pg which is pretty cool. I really can't complain, it was good to see my boy. The tech liked to talked A LOT! Therefore didn't really tell us what we were looking at and believe me at points we needed naration. I just can't wait till he's here, I want him in my arms!